Emmanuel Quartey

Zielschmerz

dictionaryofobscuresorrows:

n. the exhilarating dread of finally pursuing a lifelong dream, which requires you to put your true abilities out there to be tested on the open savannah, no longer protected inside the terrarium of hopes and delusions that you created in kindergarten and kept sealed as long as you could, only to break in case of emergency.

Reblogging for the definition, which very much describes where I am right now. The word itself doesn’t quite do justice to the sentiment, though - it’s bleh, when the proper word would be short and sonorous. The word that embodies this emotion would sound like it’s tripping over itself while attempting to remain calm.